All that overindulgence has always left me cold and a bit bewildered. The dark stuff is so alien to my character that I often feel slightly embarrassed. See it's like a badge of belonging, that stuff, and if you don't do it, it's like you're gatecrashing. Particularly if you're a drummer. Ever since
Keith Moon, us drummers have been expected to take it the extra mile, and I can't even manage the first mile.